New Years Resolutions
Resolutions can often feel cliched and over done but this year I wanted to commit to 3 specific and thought out goals. Many times I write down my goals from the coming years and then forget about them for the next 364 days. With this short and more detailed list I feel that I will be more equipped to accomplish the tasks I set out for myself. So here they are 3 ways that I want to do better by 2016, to make it a great year for me and those I am surrounded by.
Live more simply.
In 2016 I want to make it a priority to live more simply. This past year I have started to feel the weight of all the stuff that we humans like to make a priority. I felt I always wanting more material things, thinking that they if I could just purchase that one thing my life would be so much better or change so drastically. Relying on stuff, material and worldly stuff, to fix my life and make me happy is not a way that I want to live. Material things have come between my relationship with God and my relationship with people. So in 2016 I pledge to make a change, I want to put my hope in the Lord, in people, and in love, not the stuff I can buy with my tip money.
Give more of my time, attention, love, money, and just give more. The world today is so focused on ME, me time and self care and treat yourself. The world says “give to yourself you deserve it”, I have bought into this lie and I have paid for it, really making myself a priority in my life only made my life harder. Giving myself a break from studying and homework when I really hadn’t deserved it or needed it, caused me to do worse in school and not learn from my instructors. Buying myself things on a whim because I deserved it and it is my money became a big burden not only did I spend money things I didn’t need but I felt I missed many opportunities to bless others. In 2016 I want pull myself out of the center of my world. I deeply regret all the time wasted on myself in 2015 that could have been spent with my family or friends being present and enjoying the wonderful things about others. Giving more to others and experience blessings that way is something that I missed in 2015 and do not want to let slip away in 2016.
I want to always be learning new things. This resolution could manifest as simply as picking up a new hobby like sewing or knitting but it could also be on a grander scale. I want to grow deeper in knowledge about the world around me which the Lord has created. Through reading and listening and finding new experiences I want to be learning all the time. I hope to return to you all this time next year with a list of things I couldn’t do and didn’t know before. What I learn, I hope, will not only be fun and interesting but also be beneficial to me as I grow up and go out into the world. Yes, I may be faced with a challenging task or subject but in 2016 I want to learn everyday with a hunger and a passion.
Thank you all so much for reading this year. Thank you to friends and family that support me in this blogging adventure. Thank you to those godly women whose blogs I love to read who inspired this. If you would like to share you resolutions for this year I would love love love to hear them so leave a comment down below. Welcome to 2016 may it be a beautiful new year.
Driving Alone Early in the Morning
The frigid morning air has
Crept into my car, my frozen
Hands grip at the wheel.
Black coffee slides down
My throat, bitter it
Leaves a sour taste in my mouth.
Fog blocks my path
So thick I could inhale it
And puff it back out in rings.
Light cuts through
The trees to my left
Bathing the world
I am always inspired by the ocean. In every season the ocean is always fierce. During the winter it is loudly physically and visibly fierce. You watch it threaten and rear its beautiful white foaming head and crash upon the sand. It loudly proclaims I am a force. I am here and everywhere. It boasts of its beauty, scary terrifying beauty. In the cold stormy months you steer clear of the ocean because you know the powerful waters will take live and not think twice about it. But the warmer easier months are much much quieter. This is when the ocean really shows her finesse. You can lounge warm on the sand and watch the ocean up close gently lapping on the sand. You are entranced it is so big so blue and so very very welcoming. There is no hostility in the cool breeze that floats off the water and everyone seems to dance by the shore getting close but never to close. But what we all know in the back of our minds is that the ocean is silently fierce. It obtains the same force and terrifying beauty as before but know it is hidden behind the glare of the sun. The ocean she becomes this quietly strong seductress that we know only to avoid her based on our observations in the cold months when we she is showing all her cards. Yes I love the ocean, I love her when she is thrashing and spitting and being marvelous and disastrous, And I love her when she is understated and flat, playing as if she didn’t know her own power.
Happy Friday! As I am starting school next week I decided to come up with two hair styles for the fall season and share them with you. I recently chopped off a bunch of my hair, it was a much needed but scary hair appointment, and I have been loving playing with braids and styling it. It has been so long since I have had short hair and layers, none of my go to styles work anymore. So I came up with two dos that are versatile and easy. This first hairstyle I have actually seen on a lot of girls recently but I wasn’t sure if I could make it work with all the layers I have but luckily it turned really cute.
Dutch Fishtail Braid/Bun
To achieve this look I dutch braided my hair until all the hair was combined then split the three strands into two and started fishtailing until I reached the end and secured it. What really makes this hairstyle look cute and easy is making sure you pull at the braid a little to make it look bigger. Not only will this make the braid bigger but it will make it seem as though you have super thick hair. This braid is cute as it is but if you take the fishtail and wrap it around itself and pin it it makes a super cute bun and gets the hair out of the way.
Half-up Bun With Braids
I am sure all of you Girls have seen and tried the half-up bun style that is sooo popular right now I also have and LOVE IT. It is a super easy way to toss up your hair without have to go for the full on top knot. I really wanted to do something cute and different with this half bun because I had been wearing it so much that I felt it needed a change. So I added these two accent braids to it. First off I separated the hair that was going into the bun from the hair I was letting hang down. Next I parted my hair on the right and sectioned of the hair for each braid. I regular french braided the lower one, and dutch braided the other. Then gathered all the remaining hair, and the braids, and twisted it into a bun the secured it with bobby pins. I think this hairstyle is edgy with out venturing to far out of my comfort, plus it is so simple and these braids also look good in a pony or pinned back with curls.
Also while shooting the brain/bun style my cat (unfortunately for him) was napping in my room so I grabbed him for this!
Such a positive little guy.
I am a create of habit. I live for tradition and order and plans. But this holiday season is testing me. My parents recently announced that we are going to be going to disneyland for over winter break, this really freaked me out at first I mean I literally panicked. I kept thinking of all the plans I had made for the holidays and all the traditions we would have to break to go on this trip. I actually cried at the thought of missing the annual christmas party. So I gave myself a day to go through a little mental break (which looking back was maybe a little too long) and then I let myself make some new plans and adjust some of the one I already had.
In hindsight it wasn’t really an inaccurate reaction for me to have because that is the person that I am but as we spent Sunday night decorating the Christmas tree and watching our favorite Bing Crosby movie I felt my heart stop skipping at the thought of leaving familiarity, habit and tradition. I saw the light in my sisters eyes as they talked about meeting a princess and seeing the happiest place on earth. My soul found more worth in being happy because of others happy then pleasing my plans and habits.
No one could have brought that to my attention the way God did tonight, trust the adventure is what he told me. Make the most of every sad circumstance and kiss your family on the forehead and smile because they are yours. Sit in the dark with the only light being a your christmas tree, don’t speak, don’t move, just feel the weight of life lift off your shoulders. Get in you car with your family drive for 20 hours and laugh the whole way cause your sisters are getting to live the dream of their short precious lives. Then you hold on to this in your heart and when you feel rotten or unloved go back to that place live it again, cry, and move on.
Hanna Caroline ♥
I want to be active and excited and creative. I want to do and see and be, I am tired of being too tired to do things. I will not wait any longer for life to come to me. I have become thoroughly fed up with feeling bad for myself or feeling helpless. I am capable of doing things and achieving my goals I have higher ambitions than to stay up way too late watching Netflix and thinking about all things I want to do. Its madness that I want all these things out of life but wont even reach for them.
I refuse to baby myself, to continue to tell myself “You’ve done enough” or “Thats fine” even “It can wait” . No more waiting, I can only control my will and I choose to have the will that I used to possess to be unapologetically me I’ve wasted so much time being subdued and just staying in rather than going out and experiencing things, even little things like my family and my house and my neighborhood.
I guess what I am getting at is that lately I have been struggling with this pit in me that keeps telling me to shut off my mind to stay in and stay away from people. I have gotten to okay with pushing everyone out and just letting myself get into this rut of unhealthy behavior and I really want to see a change in that. I want to see myself becoming the person who I used to believe could achieve my wildest dreams.