Hey everyone and welcome back to my blog, or welcome to my (if you are here for the first time). Today I wanted to do a couple of updates on where I have been! I have not posted in so long and its mainly due to the same old stuff that keeps everyone from doing the things they want to be doing, school and work. Currently I am in my final quarter of high school and community college, so with that comes graduation preparation, moving, part planning, working as much as possible, all while doing the school work I have to do to be able to finish this quarter. I am so excited to graduate and move and that stuff but it is a lot of work to do! So that is pretty much where I have been, being super busy and wishing that I had more time to blog and film and edit, all the stuff I love to do for my blog.
But fear not because this month I am doing my best to get back to posting on the blog. It may be the minimal amount that I can do so I am not straining myself but be prepared to see a post every Friday this month. Whether it is a written post, some pictures from my week or a video, there will be a post every Friday for you all who check up on my blog.
This blog has always been something that I do as a creative outlet for myself and to share things that I love with others. I always get disheartened when it gets put on the back burner but at the same time I know what I need to prioritize in my life.
None the less I want to say to you all HAPPY MAY, I hope your spring is going well and the weather is mild and temperate. I can’t wait to get back to putting out content on my YouTube, Instagram, and here on my blog. If you would like leave a comment down below of what kind of posts/videos you would like to see!
Thanks again for checking out my Holder of my Heart,
New Years Resolutions
Resolutions can often feel cliched and over done but this year I wanted to commit to 3 specific and thought out goals. Many times I write down my goals from the coming years and then forget about them for the next 364 days. With this short and more detailed list I feel that I will be more equipped to accomplish the tasks I set out for myself. So here they are 3 ways that I want to do better by 2016, to make it a great year for me and those I am surrounded by.
Live more simply.
In 2016 I want to make it a priority to live more simply. This past year I have started to feel the weight of all the stuff that we humans like to make a priority. I felt I always wanting more material things, thinking that they if I could just purchase that one thing my life would be so much better or change so drastically. Relying on stuff, material and worldly stuff, to fix my life and make me happy is not a way that I want to live. Material things have come between my relationship with God and my relationship with people. So in 2016 I pledge to make a change, I want to put my hope in the Lord, in people, and in love, not the stuff I can buy with my tip money.
Give more of my time, attention, love, money, and just give more. The world today is so focused on ME, me time and self care and treat yourself. The world says “give to yourself you deserve it”, I have bought into this lie and I have paid for it, really making myself a priority in my life only made my life harder. Giving myself a break from studying and homework when I really hadn’t deserved it or needed it, caused me to do worse in school and not learn from my instructors. Buying myself things on a whim because I deserved it and it is my money became a big burden not only did I spend money things I didn’t need but I felt I missed many opportunities to bless others. In 2016 I want pull myself out of the center of my world. I deeply regret all the time wasted on myself in 2015 that could have been spent with my family or friends being present and enjoying the wonderful things about others. Giving more to others and experience blessings that way is something that I missed in 2015 and do not want to let slip away in 2016.
I want to always be learning new things. This resolution could manifest as simply as picking up a new hobby like sewing or knitting but it could also be on a grander scale. I want to grow deeper in knowledge about the world around me which the Lord has created. Through reading and listening and finding new experiences I want to be learning all the time. I hope to return to you all this time next year with a list of things I couldn’t do and didn’t know before. What I learn, I hope, will not only be fun and interesting but also be beneficial to me as I grow up and go out into the world. Yes, I may be faced with a challenging task or subject but in 2016 I want to learn everyday with a hunger and a passion.
Thank you all so much for reading this year. Thank you to friends and family that support me in this blogging adventure. Thank you to those godly women whose blogs I love to read who inspired this. If you would like to share you resolutions for this year I would love love love to hear them so leave a comment down below. Welcome to 2016 may it be a beautiful new year.
The Promise of Christmas
“For a child will be born to us, a son will be given to us; And the government will rest on His shoulders; And His name will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Eternal Father, Prince of Peace” – Isaiah 9:6
As we countdown the Advent, we unwrap the promise of christmas. We discover the gift of Christ in our lives. The most popular explanation of what this gift is comes from that most infamous scripture John 3:16-17
“For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send the son into the world to judge the world, but that the world might be saved through him”
That is the gift of Christmas. Yes, on Christmas we are celebrating Jesus arrival to this earth, but we are really celebrating why he came to this earth rather than the fact that he did. Jesus, being God, stepped down from his throne to become flesh and live a human life. Then he died upon the cross out of pure love for us. Wiping away all of our sins. And thats a gift that is always there for you to unwrap, its always waiting for you and its a gift that never stops giving.
I hope you all enjoyed this video and will enjoy this series celebrating the holiday season and the season of Advent. A season of expectant waiting and longing as we wait for the coming of Jesus Christ.
Thanks be to God.
Thanksgiving-invokes a feeling of gratitude and contentment…right? Well sometimes during the holidays we find ourselves caught up in the stress and the season starts to feel more like a burden rather than an opportunity to express our thankfulness. This week as we dive into the first waves of Christmas I want to be reminded and to remind you of where we should direct our thanksgiving. “Enter His gate with thanksgiving and His courts with praise; give thanks to Him and praise his name” Psalm 100:4
We also must remember the gift that was given and the reason that we even celebrate this season in the first place. As we head into the craziness of red, green, hot chocolate, silver bells and candy canes we must remember at the center of it all is the priceless gift of the Lords one and only son.
“Thanks be to God for his indescribable gift.”
2 Corinthians 9:15
Driving Alone Early in the Morning
The frigid morning air has
Crept into my car, my frozen
Hands grip at the wheel.
Black coffee slides down
My throat, bitter it
Leaves a sour taste in my mouth.
Fog blocks my path
So thick I could inhale it
And puff it back out in rings.
Light cuts through
The trees to my left
Bathing the world
I am always inspired by the ocean. In every season the ocean is always fierce. During the winter it is loudly physically and visibly fierce. You watch it threaten and rear its beautiful white foaming head and crash upon the sand. It loudly proclaims I am a force. I am here and everywhere. It boasts of its beauty, scary terrifying beauty. In the cold stormy months you steer clear of the ocean because you know the powerful waters will take live and not think twice about it. But the warmer easier months are much much quieter. This is when the ocean really shows her finesse. You can lounge warm on the sand and watch the ocean up close gently lapping on the sand. You are entranced it is so big so blue and so very very welcoming. There is no hostility in the cool breeze that floats off the water and everyone seems to dance by the shore getting close but never to close. But what we all know in the back of our minds is that the ocean is silently fierce. It obtains the same force and terrifying beauty as before but know it is hidden behind the glare of the sun. The ocean she becomes this quietly strong seductress that we know only to avoid her based on our observations in the cold months when we she is showing all her cards. Yes I love the ocean, I love her when she is thrashing and spitting and being marvelous and disastrous, And I love her when she is understated and flat, playing as if she didn’t know her own power.