Updates

Hey everyone and welcome back to my blog, or welcome to my (if you are here for the first time). Today I wanted to do a couple of updates on where I have been! I have not posted in so long and its mainly due to the same old stuff that keeps everyone from doing the things they want to be doing, school and work. Currently I am in my final quarter of high school and community college, so with that comes graduation preparation, moving, part planning, working as much as possible, all while doing the school work I have to do to be able to finish this quarter. I am so excited to graduate and move and that stuff but it is a lot of work to do! So that is pretty much where I have been, being super busy and wishing that I had more time to blog and film and edit, all the stuff I love to do for my blog.

But fear not because this month I am doing my best to get back to posting on the blog. It may be the minimal amount that I can do so I am not straining myself but be prepared to see a post every Friday this month. Whether it is a written post, some pictures from my week or a video, there will be a post every Friday for you all who check up on my blog.

This blog has always been something that I do as a creative outlet for myself and to share things that I love with others. I always get disheartened when it gets put on the back burner but at the same time I know what I need to prioritize in my life.

None the less I want to say to you all HAPPY MAY, I hope your spring is going well and the weather is mild and temperate. I can’t wait to get back to putting out content on my YouTube, Instagram, and here on my blog. If you would like leave a comment down below of what kind of posts/videos you would like to see!

Thanks again for checking out my Holder of my Heart,

Hanna Caroline.

Motivation

I want to be active and excited and  creative. I want to do and see and be, I am tired of being too tired to do things. I will not wait any longer for life to come to me. I have become thoroughly fed up with feeling bad for myself or feeling helpless. I am capable of doing things and achieving my goals I have higher ambitions than to stay up way too late watching Netflix and thinking about all things I want to do. Its madness that I want all these things out of life but wont even reach for them. 

I refuse to baby myself, to continue to tell myself “You’ve done enough” or “Thats fine” even “It can wait” . No more waiting, I can only control my will and I choose to have the will that I used to possess to be unapologetically me I’ve wasted so much time being subdued and just staying in rather than going out and experiencing things, even little things like my family and my house and my neighborhood.

I guess what I am getting at is that lately I have been struggling with this pit in me that keeps telling me to shut off my mind to stay in and stay away from people. I have gotten to okay with pushing everyone out and just letting myself get into this rut of unhealthy behavior and I really want to see a change in that. I want to see myself becoming the person who I used to believe could achieve my wildest dreams.